We all go through so many changes in life, that we are constantly evolving whether we want to or not.
My self, my life has been a roller-coaster especially December and January.
December my Beautiful Mother was back in Hospital but this time we knew it was a point of no return, Watching my Beautiful Mother my Bestest of friends, the person that I could open my heart to, fade away, it awakens so many emotions. I found my self reliving the loss of my first Husband Brett, the loss of my baby, the loss of my Father, the loss of my Brother, the loss of my Brother in law, the loss of my uncles and the loss of my first Mother in Law.
You think you have dealt with all these emotions, but you find that have not.
I felt so alone, even though everyone was around.
To top it all off I am going through a Personal Health challenge for the third time.
As many of you know is very hard when you look ok on the outside, but inside you are disintegrating.
When you go through this type of experience in life, becomes challenging in so many ways.
You become aware of how you want your Partner and your closes people to step up, make life that little bit better.
I love my work, I am very passionate about it so that is what is keeping me going.
We live in a world that revolves about money whether we like it or not.
So if you are not at your best, when you have the financial pressure with it, it makes all double hard.
So Please don be too quick to judge people, you never know the load they are carrying, they might look great on the outside, but that might not be the case.
My Mum’s passing has hit me hard and I think is because she has always been there for me.
She was there for support, emotionally and you can’t put a price on that.
Mum was never in a financial situation to help, but she was always there to make things better.
I have a rough road ahead, but I will get through as the good Lord will decide what my journey is.
I can still hear my mum say
“Chin up there a people in a worse situation than you, and you are Strong and I Love you and my Love will see you through”
I use to sleep with my Mum whenever I visit her, we would talk all night, we would laugh, cry so at 59 my Mum’s bed was the best place.
Please don’t take your loved ones for granted cause one day, they will not be there.
Yes, and I know that she has transformed into Spirit and she is around me all the time but is not the same.
So if you have not called your Mum, Dad, Brother, Sister or friend today, DO SO or at least send them a message