Today My Husband did something special for me, but I feel that he has no Idea what it means to me. it brought me so much joy
Too many people would think not much about going bush but for me, it was very special.
We went out bush, yes I know it does not sound anything exciting but for me, it was what I needed, once I re-connected with the bush a felt so emotional and I had a tear of release.
it was not as long as I felt he really did not want to do it but we got a small load of wood and left.
I loved being out there, but I felt like I was intruding in his special place. so I need more time out the bush so I am going to have to find a way to do it on my own.
That is one of the many things that are different in this marriage, with my first hubby there was not his thing or my thing we did everything together for 30 years, going wooding it was the best, camping, the yard, the housework, cooking everything we were a team, so I am still learning that things are not the same and never will be. Brad was on his own for many years and is like he does not know how to be a team with me, but he is certainly a team with his friends.
To me, we are number 1, and everyone else is number 2, but to him, his mates are number 1 and I am number 2, that is how it feels. but he does not realize that he is doing it
I know that he loves me, but maybe I expect too much.
I certainly don’t want anyone else in my life as a woman I have the men that I want when he is there.
Is hard as I know that I am not an easy person to live with, I sometimes forget to ask his opinion as well so I need to learn how to be a team player too.
All I am saying is, take the time to reconnect with your self, acknowledge what is not right and try and work with it, no one is perfect.
I do Love Brad but I am still learning to build our lives together. all I can do is keep working with it and hope he feels the same, never take your partner for granted, treat them the way you would like to be treated, I am sure we got a long life so there will always be ups and down, but as long as we talk about it without judgement we will be ok.