Family

The family is Important, we are born into a family, they are blood a true connection, and they are important to us, but we have less tolerance for our closest relatives, Why is that?We grow and we make friends and they become more important than them, Why?

Is it because they reflect what we want, or is it cause they are ready to tag along for the ride.

Let’s look at our Parents if it was not for them we would not be having this conversation.

They take care of us for the first 10 years of our lives, then we get to double figures and we think we know it all and we challenge them, Why? I know I was a challenge  Child my parents had a hard time sometimes with me, I would question everything. But I knew that if Mum said NO my Dad would say yes and I use to take advantage of that.  My poor Mother would try to get me t understand but I would not listen, but my  Dad believed that we learned from our mistakes.

I count my blessings, that I had good parents coming from a big family is always fun.         I left home when I was young, in a way I wish a did not but in another I am glad.                 The last 10 year, I feel I have got closer to my Mum more than ever, I always felt distance from   my Family, I do Love my family and if they need me I like to be there if they call me, but I never call them  I have always felt that they are too busy and they don’t care  and I feel sad about that.

I have been living in Collie for a very long time, and they have only visit for Funerals and weddings.  I had my family there with Brett and my four children, I took care f them the best way I could and Brett did what he could. Once we  needed to go to Sydney as My Brother was in his last days and I really wanted to say good bye to him, it was so hard to leave my children with a family, I have never forgiven my self for that as I feel affected them  to be separated, To My children I am sorry for that. I never left them with strangers again.

I Created a Family with Brett and my four children in Collie, I took care f them the best way I could and Brett did what he could. Once we  needed to go to Sydney as My Brother was in his last days and I really wanted to say good bye to him, it was so hard to leave my children with a family, I have never forgiven my self for that as I feel affected them  to be separated, To My children I am sorry for that. I never left them with strangers again.

Considering everything my children have done well for them selves and I am proud, I can call on any of my children and they would be there for me.

As you all  I became a widow 9 years ago and it was my children and a couple of close friends that helped me through, my grand children were my inspiration. I am so Blessed to start a new family with Brad Dutton, we been married now for 6 years  and I love him even though, I don’t agree with a  few things  but he is his own person and I am not his Mother, he has a Son \named Joshua who I love as my own and there is nothing I would not do for him , he is an amazing young man, I was so proud to be at his wedding this year him and Jessica make a wonderful couple.

Sitting here with Mum this weekend knowing that I will not have her for ever it has made me realize how lucky I have been to have her for as long as I have  but most of all how much I love my Mum, she has  helped me become who I am today I see my self in her and I am so glad that I do.

Every day with her is a Blessing.

Thank you all for being part of my life in some way.

Love and Light to all

 

 

 

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Self time

Personal time is one of the most important  things , why do we forget that.

We get so got up in what is expected from us that we don’t invest  in our selves

Try and take 15 minutes a day just to sit and feel your spirit and connect to your thoughts.

You will be surprise as how much clarity you can create , and how much easier it it is to make decisions.

Than you realise the important of making people a part of your life not your responsibility.

As my children get older I notice how much they don’t need me as they make decisions for them selves , even though at times I can see they are heading the wrong way , I had to learn to let go and let them find their way, as I will always be there when they call on me but I had to learn that i have to wait till I am called.

This has given me the time to Reflect on me and my life , where I am at and what I need and most of all who I am .

I will always be a Mum and I am very happy to be a Grandma, and  happy to be a Wife and a Loyal friend , but what is most important is that I need to be me I need to have my completeness and self understanding , so I am self  INVESTING  .

At the end of the day it me that I am with, it me that I lean to .

It is incredible how you can be in a room and in a relationship and have a family and feel completely alone .

Alone is not a sad word is simply a realisation that your self is all you have and it must be first, when you Die , you do it on your own when you are Born you do it on your own, so you need to be ready with your self to accept those transitions with love and ease.

So Start today , don’t be scared be number ONE make sure you say Yes to your self 

Learning

As soon AS WE REALISE THAT WE ARE HERE TO GROW AND LEARN .

that is when we start to grow .

we never have all the answers, but we certainly have the questions.

Remember that a child might have the answer as well

Opportunities

There are Opportunities all around us  but sometimes we are blind and we don’t see them , or is it, that we don’t want to see them ?

We get got in our emotions sometimes and we son’t see what is right in front of us .

Mainly cause we need to change  or we need to step out of our comfort zone.

We are never offered or create what w can’t handle , is only our own fears or lack self believe that prevents us from moving forward.

So remember there are no Mishaps, there are only lessons to learn, there are no Mistakes only steps to learn to climb along the way .

Have a go at everything believe in you self .

                                                        YOU CAN DO IT 

Sharing Life

Sharing life , you would think that is easy but is so hard sometimes .
you can spend time with someone and not know how to reach them .
the silence , you find your self conversing with your self .
To share a day , an emotion a smile could do so much . A simple hello is good to see you when you arrive . an Offer of a drink or food if you are having something . It does not seem like much but it is so important to feel that you are part of each others world .
Specially when there is silence and no communication , than someone visits and the other party has lots to say to others but nothing to you .

It is important to share , now days people sit on their phone and games and the silence is building more and more, that make me sad.
We are Human and we need to be connected, sometimes we pay more attention to our pets than our Partner.
That is not good , cause that is how we start reaching out out side our relationship, for communication and companionship .

I am fortunate to have my Work as , I feel lonely at times . I have one of those Partners that never has anything to say , I know he cares , he tells me he loves me , he tells me that he misses me when we are not together yet when we are it is very lonely sometimes .
I do Care for my Partner very much , infarct I do Love him .
But sometimes I feel is it enough, am I enough for him.
I am a very loving person and I need to feel loved and that I am number 1, and He is very individual he needs to know that I am there he doesn’t need me to make him number one , Or Does He?. I don’t know .

Many relationships now days have challenges in communication, I feel that is why there are so many affairs and divorce now day , is like we have forgotten how to be in a relationship .
Think about it………………….

I am Glad that even though I get lonely and sometimes i feel likes his friends and the dog are more important than me , there are times that he makes me feel that we are OK.
I plan to grow old together but also I pray that we can strengthen our connection to.

I do Miss him when I am away and I do miss him when he is not in Bed with me , I am not interested in anyone else as I can be my self with him , and I feel that is important .

Take care of who ever you share your life with give them a hug let them know they are a very important part of your life .

Love and light everyone

One day at the time

We all say take it one day at the time , it is so easy to say but hard to do for some .

We live in a world with high expectation and so much pressure sometimes , that we would love to take it one  day at the time , and we can .

So try not to over commit to things , learn the power of :

Maybe,

I will think about it ,

I see how  gow ,

if I feel like it ,

will let you know.

Take the pressure of your life , don’t allow yourself to feel obligated to anyone .

Don’t say no to yourself by feeling obligated to say yes to others.

Take the time to ask yourself :

Do I want to do this 

Am I interested in this 

How do I feel about this.

How does this effect me 

If the answers are:

Yeah that feels god 

I feel so happy

 that really make me happy

 that really going to help me .

Than go ahead  and do it .

Put your self first and the right people will be there with you .

Love and Light everyone

Accepting what is

We all spend so much time trying to understand our journey.

Without realizing it we make it more difficult .

If we could just be , and feel our true feeling on every experience we would have a much better understanding  of who we are .

Every day has something to offer but we miss it sometimes cause we are thinking of yesterday , so we need to accept this very moment that we are in as the past is gone and can not be change , and a experience cannot be recreated .

We can do the same thing time and time again but it will be  different every time.

Sometimes is different cause we  get better at things the more we do it other time s is different cause our frame of  mind is different .

this last 2 weeks in Bali that is what I decided to do , is accept each day as its presents it self .

Living in the now.

Love and Light to all